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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Alcohol Commercials in Hello
The Jim Beam one where the whole bar is singing Sweet Caroline. Stop that! I like that song… Then there is the super creepy Guinness commercial for the zero alcohol version. The foam in the be...
Hrm (Updated) in Hello
Middle brother got mom a new TV as a surprise Christmas gift. Only problem is the HDMI cable he gave us was bad and I really don’t feel like braving holiday shoppers to get a new one right now. ...
I Swear To God... in Hello
I’ll shoot myself if I turn on the PS3 for more Fallout today. I’ve been playing that WAY too much lately. I am in a somber state today. Reread an entry I wrote on Dec. 18th from a few years ...
Moan Complain Gripe in Hello
So, my Internet has been down right? The power light was blinking so after some internet sleuthing I had to order a new power adapter. Modem works fine now but will not connect to the Internet s...
The Lost Sunday in Hello
Late Saturday night…Sunday morning??? Anyways, I took a sleeping pill and crashed out watching TV. With the exception of walking up to pee then again for dinner I slept all day and night finall...
You Don't Have To Be Crazy To Be In My Family in Hello
But it helps! 1:31 AM Did the dinner with fam tonight. My middle brother and his gf were out due to COVID. I met my cousin’s new, “friend.” He seems nice, a bit quiet. Cousin’s daughter was t...
Fiddy Daze in Hello
50 days sober!!! Let’s boogie!
My Eyes Burn in Hello
I already put in drops earlier, still burning. Ugh. Picked up mom at 2 PM. We had to ride to Publix for a few ingredients for the two dishes she’s making for the family dinner. I stopped in at...
6:31 AM (Update) in Hello
Kept dozing off last night a little after midnight. Smokey was asleep in my lap keeping me warm hence my extreme comfort. Finally got the energy to kick off my shoes and pants and was quickly as...
I Know That Starting Over Is Not What Life's About in Hello
Mk, I had a few questions in my last entry both public and private about my sobriety so I figure I’ll address them. No, I have no intention of drinking again. Because I had my stint in rehab I’d ...
Custard Filled, Chocolate Glazed in Hello
My favorite doughnut. Had one after dinner. Speaking of unhealthy diets, I’m trying to ease up on the candy. I have massive sugar cravings at night. You see, night time was my (heavy) drinking ...
Sunday Was Pointless in Hello
Dozed on and off from like 3 AM till 5 AM till I had to take mom to work. No drug test so got a crappy sleep from like 10 till 3 in the afternoon. Got mom at 6. Went to the Chinese buffet for ...
Christmas Survey Snatched From Lasergirl in Hello
Does your family send out Christmas cards? Used to. Most of the extended family has all passed away. How soon do you start shopping? December 1st Who do you shop for? Mom mostly. I’ll usually g...
I Don't Want To Get Drunk in Hello
But I just want a few beers right now However… One turns to two, two turns to four, four turns to liquor, liquor turns to me crawling on the floor. I’m not even that much of a beer guy. Guinn...
It Ain't My Fault It's Six O' Clock In The Morning in Hello
I don’t want to dream anymore. Now rehab is creeping into my subconscious. Plus other oddities. I keep finding myself stranded in different areas in town and I’m having to hoof it on foot. Th...
This Shit Has Gotten Old in Hello
I keep getting emails from a temp service about jobs in Tennessee. I hit decline every time but they keep coming. It’s too far away for me! It was bad enough when I worked in Decatur and with ...
Salami 'N Crackers in Hello
Is what I just ate for a quick meal. Had to navigate the jungle that is my garage to get to the Christmas tree. Go figure I nearly tripped dragging it out and in a attempt to balance myself I je...
Days One Through Three (I'm Forty Days Sober Today) in Rehab Chronicles
Day 1 10/30 Monday It was a bit intimidating at first but everyone was welcoming which put my mind at ease. Found out that one of the counselors is a sci-fi/comic guy. We’ve since talked exten...
Sugar Is A Harsh Mistress in Hello
Normally I’d drink at night. Now when nighttime hits, usually after ten, I’m craving sweets. Lately it’s been chocolate. I’m disgusted with myself. Just the other night I polished off a king s...
What were the highlights and lowlights of my stay? Highlights: Structure 6 AM wake 6:30 meds and smoke 7 breakfast 8 first group 10 second smoke, second group 11:30 till 12:30 lunch 1 PM smoke 3 ...
Now THAT Was Funny (Plus AMA) in Hello
I returned to outpatient today. While on a smoke break Bene, the counselor, asked me what I thought of AB. I didn’t sugar coat it when I said she was a controlling, condescending bitch. She ag...
Fajita Sunday in Rehab Chronicles
I have missed my cooking greatly. That is all.
Here We Go Again in Hello
5:01 AM I’ve been on the PS3 since getting out on Wednesday. Started up my save file on Fallout 3 after dinner (ribeye, corn, green beans, baked zucchini) then when I looked at the clock it was ...
12:01 AM Pain in Hello
Yesterday I had my left foot tucked under my right leg while showing mom something on the PlayStation. Well, whenever I do that it’s basically crushing my foot (I wasn’t paying attention) and it...
New Book in Rehab Chronicles
I decided that I will transfer my day to day journal that I wrote to here. Cast of characters: Admin Bitch - AB The administrator of the facility. I went to high school with her. She was a bi...
