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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Let The Hate Flow Through You *Edit* in Hello
I have court next Friday so I’m taking a seven day detox to fully clean my system. I was smoking weed to help curb the alcohol cravings. A few things went wrong so far today (it’s only 12:09 in ...
Who Do You Voodoo, Bitch? in Hello
That was a song from the video game Dead Island. I’ve been playing Dying Light 2, made by the same dev team and I had the time stuck in my head so I bumped it in the car today. Mom has been harp...
Punching The Air in Hello
I think it’s finally hitting me. Just the disappointment I feel towards myself about my relapse. Please, no comments about it’s part of the process. I went to a fucking rehab program then beca...
The Ole Craving in Hello
I’m smoking a bowl to curb the alcohol craving. When stoned I don’t want alcohol. Songs about addiction…
Bender Bending Rodriguez in Hello
Where’s my Futurama peeps? I’m coming off a four day bender, I skipped the aftercare class cause I felt awful and reeked of booze. I poured out the last of the vodka when I got up today. I’m d...
I Saw The Whole Wide World Just To Find Her in Hello
In real life this actually happened to me…a few times. Girls think it’s sexy when a man can serenade them.
Want To Lose Your Faith In Humanity? in Hello
Go to a Wal-Mart and people watch. Seriously, it’s like a human zoo. 🤭 In other news I’m paying for the relapse. My stomach has been torn up.
Time Travel in Hello
I wish I could go back to my dad’s funeral so I could scream at his corpse for giving up. Why not when he was alive? He stopped caring. I’ve been raising myself since age 13. Shit, mom used me (...
I'm Still Alive in Hello
Hungover but not deathly hungover like I’ve been before. It’s 6:37 PM, I’ve been asleep most of the day. Saturday night into Sunday I had a very intense dream about someone I once loved. She m...
I Just Don't Care in Hello
Relapsed last night. Drunk now. ‘Night folks
Oh God Oh God It Hurts in Hello
1:35 AM She ended up buying tickets for not only the Natural History Museum but also The Berman Museum. That one was world history. I snapped some pics of a confiscated Nazi flag from the WWII ...
Yum Yum Yum And A Liverwurst A-La-Mode in Hello
Ugh. I’ve drank too much liquid tonight and my bladder hates me. Some stuff since I last wrote… Mom is officially retired and bored out of her mind. To rectify this we’ve been going for walks ar...
End Of February Reading List in Hello
Night Shift by Stephen King Side Jobs by Jim Butcher The Cobra Strain by Richard Preston Zone One and Harlem Shuffle by Colson Whitehead The Devils Boneyard by William W. Johnstone and J.A. Johns...
I’m listening to a band YouTube keeps recommending me. This song is beautiful.
Dumpster Diving At The Mental Health Clinic in Hello
It’s one thing to be in a waiting room at a regular doctor’s office. You should see the lobby at a state ran mental health facility.
I feel like shit. Acid on my stomach is bringing bile to my throat and liquid fire out my butt. Today I shall lay low with antacids, Peptol and plenty of water. It’s almost 8 AM and I’m thinki...
What's Sleep? in Hello
Monday was my birthday and it was so hard. At dinner that night an elderly couple sat at a table across from me. I listened as the man told his wife, “to another forty-one years,” as they clink...
Quote From Harlem Shuffle in Hello
“The way he saw it, living taught you that you didn’t have to live the way you’d been taught to live. You came from one place but more important was where you decided to go “ -Colson Whitehead
Today I Am 41 in Hello
Looming on the horizon, as the day approached I became more and more depressed. Now that it is here I just don’t care it’s my birthday. Big woo, I’ll go eat at an overpriced steakhouse. I wish...
3:15 AM Still getting insane sugar cravings late at night. I’m ashamed at just how many sweets I ate the other night. Again, did my drinking at night so the sugar fairy comes at night. Today I ...
It's 8:16 AM, Will You Wake Up Please? in Hello
Actually it’s 1:48 AM. I just have 311 stuck in my head. I slept well and woke up with my back feeling better. Yet my left elbow started hurting yesterday, too. It hurts worse now and the br...
If I'm Not Back In Ten Minutes in Hello
Just wait longer… I pulled a muscle in my back that makes it hurt to breathe. Screw this noise. Still having gut issues after I eat. Dunno what’s going on. Rosie Butt is doing great! She was...
More Stomach Issues (Rose Update) in Hello
I have felt queasy all day. Like there is something nasty on spin cycle in my gut. I’ve taken Pepto and have drank a lot of water. I feel somewhat better but not fully. And Rosie was flopped o...
My Tummy Aches in Hello
12:24 AM Had to get up and take mom to work again. Except this time I crashed shortly after getting home and slept on and off till 1 . I wanted to get out of the house and do something but the ...
Prosebox Has Seizures On My Mobile in Hello
It’s hard to explain. Like the logo and front page top line will multiply itself down the front of my screen and I can’t see anything else unless I turn my phone sideways to landscape. It’s weir...
