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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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I need to lotion up, my skin is dry. My back has been hurting throughout the day and I don’t know why. Working tomorrow to make up for Monday ‘cause I ate up my sick leave. Bah! It won’t be so...
Spent the rest of the day relaxing, taking my BP meds and slept a few good hours. Around 10:30 ish I started a book and just about five minutes ago finished said book. Roughly six to seven hour...
Physical Health in Hello
Visit to the doc got me scared. BP 190 over 107. As of today, I’m no longer a smoker or drinker. I’ll work on all the bad food later. For a guy with a history of self harm, I don’t wanna die. N...
But I can’t ‘cause I’m a drug abusing alcoholic… -NOFX I Am An Alcoholic I poised the question in my last entry why oh why do I do this to myself. Actually have been thinking of an answer to that...
Stinky Poo in Hello
I’m using the restroom the office people use. It’s air conditioned. XD If there is one uncomfortable feeling I hate it’s being sweaty while doing the business. I was stupid, again, last night an...
Soup To Nuts in Hello
I woke up early this morning with diarrhea. Then had to again around one PM. Then two-thirty. Puked my Arby’s sandwich on my way out the door to work. Real sour stomach so yeah, I had to call ...
Haven't We Met Before? in Hello
Ok. My super got fired. A week or so later… I was first put in assembly I worked less than a half day and left. Called out a lot and went on a bender…for more than four days…straight. Went back t...
What's Been Really Going On in Hello
The crap at work threw me into a dark downward spiral. Between the heat, the change up in what I’d be doing and a few other factors I jumped right into a bottle and stayed there. Every Off Day (...
The Stuff I Think Of in Hello
I’ve been listening to too much Bill Burr at work. I’d like to see a race between a little person and a fat kid with Down’ s. Not on the sidelines either. Adjust a go pro to focus on their head...
The fourth came and went. Went to my brother’s for a cookout. His wife had a nurse friend over with a highly autistic sixteen year old. Decent kid. Apparently he feels comfortable at my bro’s...
Good Ol' Insomnia in Hello
Got off at two. Showered, ate, relaxed on couch. Set alarm for noon as OT on Friday starts at one thirty. Here it is, eight thirty-seven and wide the fuck awake. I already called work and ga...
When bored at home, set a timer for a specific amount of time then, see how much you can accomplish in said time. I learned that from a ADHD YouTube video. I absolutely despise my dirty kitchen ...
Rum Dipped Cigars in Hello
Last pay day I made a trip to Humidor Pipe Shop and bought a pack of Al Capone’s. European style mini cigars. Yeah, I quit smoking but these are a treat to me. Right now I’m kicking back after...
Cause For Alarm in Hello
First, the old super gets fired. Second, the QC got (who came in way too many times noticeably messed up on drugs) got driven to the urgent care one night for an instant drug test. Fired. Today o...
Father's Day in Hello
My dad cared about his friends and his own self being. Then he died. Best gift ever. I do miss you, just not as much as you think I would.
Aches And Pains in Hello
Worked pretty hard Thursday night. Woke up Friday hurting. Pains still consist now but taking meds for it. My skin is hot to the touch and my heart is thudding in my chest. Yeah, I’m not feelin...
Differential Dimensions in Hello
I’d bone the Parker actor from the State Farm commercials. During my hiatus from life the past…seven?…days, I’ve been reading a Philip K. Dick short story collection. I really enjoy his work, ...
José Martinéz, Risk Taker in Hello
Denial. You experience a sense of free fall. Fuck it I got nothing to say right now.
8:30 AM. Discharged. Detox under medical supervision? In a hospital? Haw! I’m pissed…
Taxi's Are Busy And Mom Is Asleep in Hello
Peacock is coming to pick me up and drop me off at the hospital. No. I’ve not cut myself. I just need time to dry out and rethink my life. See y’all in a few days.
Molotov Cocktail Party in Hello
The places that still stand to us. Where bad things happened. We’ll do a community bbq where we torch that shit to the ground. Use the embers for bbq. We can eat this hurt then shit it out an...
Slather Me In Sauce in Hello
After watching Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives last night I’m craving ribs. Extra sauce, please! I dozed off somewhere after one AM. Woke up at four. Couldn’t get back to sleep. Now it’s six fift...
You Pussy in Dreams And Nightmares
Write an angry letter and sleep on it. I called in. Went to my regular doc about the numb finger and calf muscle. Covid isn’t fully understood, taste and smell could be dead nerves like my leg. ...
Why I'm Angry in Hello
This 33 year old kid aka supervisor went on a tirade and stimatizing mental health. Shut up. Go to work. Get over it. Go back in the shadows and everyone will be happy. I will not work throug...
I love that when I come home from a shit night at work I can’t bitch about it like she does. I’m all told is Well you know you can’t quit. No fucking shit you dumbass nitwit! You get to bitch...
