J.E. ⋅ 42 ⋅
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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She bought me a new TV tonight as both a reward for one month sober and as my only Christmas gift lol. Since we got home and I got it all squared away I’ve been gaming. Ahhh I’ve missed it.
Intervention The Show in Hello
This show depresses me. Not for what the person or their family are going through. It’s the fact that if my family held one for me only my mom and aunt would show up. If my cousin (whose like ...
2:34 AM Insomnia in Hello
Thirty-fuckin’-days-sober!
FUCK YOU BUDDY! in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
My brain has been screaming for alcohol most of the day. This shit fucking sucks! Shit fuck cunt cocksucker motherfucker cocksucker (x’s 2) asshole bitch GAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! Someone give me som...
This Is So Effing Stupid! in Hello
I’ve been white knuckling it the better part of the evening with alcohol cravings. I know Ill be sick. I know I’ll be splashing my guts out rectally. I know Ill sleep too late or not enough. ...
My brain was trying to convince me earlier that a twelve pack of cheap beer and playing guitar would be really fun. I didn’t cave. Hand/eye coordination would go out the window and I’d end up d...
I slept in WAY too late Sunday. Past 1 PM, too late. But as I said in the previous entry, my back and hip hurt, I was stoned on pain pills and got into a super comfy nook wrapped in my blanket ...
High As A Kite in Hello
Plus really tired. It wasn’t part of the tooth but a piece of bone fragment that didn’t fully come out when said tooth was extracted. The doc was able to pick it out and I’m much relieved. He ga...
Mentally And Physically Hurting in Hello
I’ve felt so alone today. My mouth hurts and is a bit swollen. I almost drank tonight but didn’t. Sat and stewed in self pity instead. Dentist in 9 1/2 Hours. I need sleep. But I don’t wann...
Fuck This This in Hello
Been in a mood today. Rolled my tongue of the area where the tooth was pulled and felt a pain as it slide over a sharp point. Great! I still have a bit of said tooth in there. I get to go back ...
Melatonin Fever Dream in Dreams And Nightmares
There were three bisexual friends, one of them a cheating bride to be. A sexual assault lawsuit that involved a bunch of faces I haven’t seen in years, I was a juror. Lastly, a gf that would re...
Owie Wowie in Hello
Got that last bad tooth taken care of yesterday. It’s tender. A little whole ago I was annoying mom, constantly talking and poking her with the back scratcher when I got the brilliant idea to fa...
Craving Tha Sauce! in Hello
After dinner I got a craving for alcohol. It’s all about finding a distraction. Luckily I had Candy Crush and YouTube.
Better Than Yesterday in Hello
Today has shaped up to be a lot better than yesterday. Left over pot roast for brunch, went and got an Icee, came home and jammed on the guitar for a bit, felt even more restless so did a two mil...
Funk (Updated] in Hello
Mom said some really mean things to me earlier today and I’ve been in a crappy mood since. I wanted to get some alcohol to ease the moodiness but again, I reminded myself of the broken TV set and...
4:32 AM Pain And Two Weeks Sober in Hello
Gah! The left side of my face hurts. It’s around the gum line where I had two teeth pulled last year. Mom and I were munching on some crackers and homemade chicken salad when one of the cracke...
🎃Happy Halloween, Y'all!🎃 in Hello
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Quote From Moonraker in Hello
All the signs pointed to paranoia. Delusions of grandeur, and behind that, of persecution. The contempt in his face. The bullying voice. The expression of secret triumph with which he had met ...
Mucho Better in Hello
My stomach feels much better. Didn’t get sick but still hung out in the bathroom longer than I wanted to. It’s raining so now track walking for me today. Dreary Sunday morning. I need to fin...
I Don't Feel Good in Hello
My stomach feels super queasy. Either it was the left over enchilada I had for brunch or the Manwich I ate for dinner. Either or, my tummy is on a spin cycle and for once it’s not alcohol relat...
Nac Mac Feegle! in Hello
Nac Mac Feegle! The Wee Free Men! Nae king! Nae quin! Nae laird! Nae master! We willna’ be fooled again! I’m hungry…and starting to miss gaming.
Double Digits! in Hello
Ten days sober!
That Was Orgasmic in Hello
My finger tips hurt. Cooling off from being drenched in sweat. Had the shakes, then when done I tremored all over. For the first time in at least four years I picked up my electric guitar and j...
Dear Sweet Glorious Sleep! in Hello
Though I woke up a few times, I collectively got twelve hours of sleep. Ahhh! I don’t feel so loopy now. Day 8.
Words spoken can always cut… I’m with someone I love who loves me back… I loved you, too… That didn’t stop anything from happening… I’m going back to my book now. ✌ Oh ya, the 25th of October R...
