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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”

Philip K. Dick

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August 20, 2023

Mag, I Say Magnolia! in Hello

Foghorn Leghorn is on in the background. I’m being lazy today. Friday mom got a new car. Nissan Kicks, with all the futuristic cool stuff. I’ve inherited the old Saturn. Yesterday we did some ret...


As you can see, I’m goofing around with my titles. 🤷‍♂️ I didn’t cook dinner. We ended up at the Chinese buffet. I ate chicken, chicken and more chicken of course with some egg drop soup. Ma ...


My color was called this morning so I got there around 9:15ish for the widdle screening. Yeah, me and about twenty other people. I split fifteen minutes later cause I had to get my Vivitrol sho...


Haven’t even attempted to sleep. Finally, after almost 160 hours, I BEAT ASSASSIN’S CREED ODYSSEY! The LONGEST effin’ playthrough I’ve ever had. Right now I’m downloading the patch updates for...


August 16, 2023

I'm So Tired in Hello

Roughly two hours of sleep. Woke up at five AM and couldn’t get back to sleep. I’m pure zombie today. Part of me wants to take a nap but I know I’ll sleep ALL day and I don’t want that. It does...


August 16, 2023

Much Better in Hello

Thunderstorms last night brought on relief from the heat. Currently it’s 83 out. I went on a two and a half mile walk and was no where near as sweaty as I have been. Plus a nice cool breeze co...


August 15, 2023

1:42 AM AKA Begs N Achin' in Hello

Went for a walk around four this afternoon (it was 95 F out.). My right shin and calf muscle hate me. Spent the better part of an hour gaming with said leg wrapped in the heating pad. I can wa...


August 14, 2023

Just Another Pain In The Ass in Hello

Got to group and apparently EVERYBODY owed over $100. When you owe over that amount you have to sign a contract that you’ll pay X amount every month. Thing is I pay off my balances every Monday...


August 14, 2023

9:21 PM in Hello

Just took my sleeping pills cause I want this day to just be over with already. Feeling super depressed and I don’t know why . Goodnight everyone.


August 13, 2023

Holy Crapola! in Hello

Didn’t realize it till I commented on Reddit. Seven days sober. I’ve got a fire in my belly thanks to that judge.


August 13, 2023

Much Beddah! in Hello

After store brand Tylenol and another two hours of sleep I felt much better. This might sound silly but after going through what I did yesterday and last night without getting fucked up, I am go...


August 12, 2023

I Don't Feel Good in Hello

My whole body is hot to the touch, I’ve got a massive headache and zero energy. My joints ache and I didn’t sleep well last night. Stress? Maybe. Weather? Good possibility. I’ve showered for the...


Not sunburned but have a wicked tan on my back. Been feeling hot all night since my walk. I’m not angry anymore. After isolating myself in my bedroom and gaming for a few hours, sober no less...


Well, I went to court. The first thing the judge told me was, “You’re about to go to jail!” Visibly confused I asked, “Now?” “Not yet but you’re headed there. You failed your last screening for...


August 11, 2023

Updates Will Follow in Hello

8:27 AM Dragged a razor across my head and face, took a nice hot shower with green apple body wash. Now I’m sitting down with an iced coffee and about to have two pieces of bacon and some scramb...


I think I may have a little sunburn. Can’t really tell. I forgot to wear a hat when walking, remember I shave my head bald. So of course my forehead, shoulders and back feel hot. I walk in a ...


Took mom to her optometrist appointment and while I was looking at the video game section in Wal-Mart I noticed I had the shakes. Was I hungry? Was I still detoxing? Was I craving? Craving…a...


emphasized text Tonight was the second time ever of me making salmon. As the title says, not Salmon patties. Those don’t count (though I rock the Southern Style recipe.) This was two salmon fi...


August 09, 2023

Et tu, Phyllis? in Hello

Title comes from something I just heard on Murder She Wrote. I only walked and did some yard work today but my abdominal muscles feel like I did one-hundred sit ups. Guess it was from flexing on...


August 09, 2023

Wanna Get Stoned! in Hello

Got the Naltrexone prescription today. Shoe buddy does it make me tired. Drowsiness is one of the side effects. I did over a two mile walk after group then cut down some branches on a small tr...


August 08, 2023

Cold Black Heart in Hello

Found out my cousin Brad (42) died in a motorcycle accident back in late July. I have no remorse, only relief. Dead beat dad, drug user/pusher, bad kid all throughout his life, in and out of ja...


August 07, 2023

Awful Awful in Hello

I feel so sick this morning. Between the tacos and the spicy chips from last night my stomach is telling the rest of my body to fuck off. I’m thinking light meals for today. Maybe some chicke...


August 07, 2023

Cunt-ry Gravy in Hello

Found a recipe for bacon gravy aka country gravy. Come breakfast time I’m gonna whip up a batch to put on my eggs. 2:15 AM I think the trazodone is starting to kick in. Had to eat a peppermi...


It feels like my eyesight is getting worse. Bah! Yesterday ma and I went to the mall to walk around a bit for exercise and because we got cabin fever. That was the longest time I’ve spent there...


August 05, 2023

Typical in Hello

I want to thank everyone for the comments from yesterday. Monday at 10 AM I have an assessment with the medical side at Wellstone. After the evaluation they’re going to give me a prescription fo...


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