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by J.E.

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January 18, 2023

Not Sleeping Tonight

4:08 AM. Court at 8:30. Bit nervous.


January 15, 2023

Nobby Knee

I’m pretty sure I knocked my knee when tossing and turning in my sleep, it hurts. The swelling is gone but it’s still really tender. I’d like to trade my almost 40 year old body for my 20 year...


January 14, 2023

Kitty Broth

Lily helped herself to the broth of my soup I ate a little while ago. Silly kitty. Nothing is laid out for dinner so it’s up to me to pick out a place. I’m not really sure what I want. It’s on...


January 13, 2023

That Wasn't Good

We went to our usual Chinese restaurant yesterday. None of the food tasted right. Still not feeling 100%. Our favorite waiter is moving to Virginia at the end of the month so mom tipped him go...


January 11, 2023

Feel Awful

I can’t seem to shake this effing cold. Woke up feeling awful. Now when I cough my stomach muscles cramp up. Screw this noise!


January 11, 2023

I Want Jail Time

It’s the break/vacation I’ve been needing. No phone, one TV, people ready to beat you down. Psych Ward 2.0


January 10, 2023

Twenty Plus Years Later

This album means a lot to me. First one I truly listened to after moving into this house. I still struggle for sleep…


January 09, 2023

Snotty

I’m getting better but now hacking up all the mucus. Mmm mmm good! Keep having a reoccurring dream where I’m going into public places with no shoes on. Weird. Speaking of public places ma and ...


January 06, 2023

Rested Yet Tired

I’ve slept good the last two nights, thanks to the meds and being sick. But I’m still just so tired. Granted I did do dishes and two loads of laundry today. Just wanna curl up and sleep. Final...


January 05, 2023

Quote

Sobriety doesn’t open the gates of Heaven and let’s you in. It opens the gates of Hell and let’s you out. Haven’t had a cigarette in two days and I’m fiending. My throat hurts too effin’ much to...


January 04, 2023

Caught It

Yup, I got whatever mom has. Been sucking down ice water and sweet tea like there’s no tomorrow. There is ice cream in the freezer but I need actual food. I’ve been sleeping/resting on and off ...


January 03, 2023

The 18th

I’m really fucking scared. If I go to jail, I’ll go with my chin high. Peacock fucking hates me and I’m encouraging it. I’m literally at the point I want jail time. I just really need a lot of...


January 03, 2023

Can't Win For Losing

After taking the meds I got comfy and crashed hard. Woke up a little while ago and the knee isn’t hurting so bad. Yay! But… Now I’ve got a sore throat and a bit of a cough like mom. FML


January 02, 2023

After Care

The nurse practitioner prescribed me some ‘script grade Naproxen and some steroid patches so we’ll see how that goes. I’m laid up on the couch watching Free Guy. Is it just me or does Ryan Reyn...


January 02, 2023

3 AM And All Is Well

Not really but whatever. Mom just went and crashed in bed. She’s still sick so bright and early we’re going to the doctor. Her for the cough and me for the swelling. Hopefully they’ll give me p...


December 31, 2022

New Years Eve

Walking is a bit difficult today. The swelling in my knee keeps shifting from one side to another. It’s very annoying. Mom is sick. I went to go get us some egg drop soup from the takeout plac...


December 29, 2022

Water Ain't Cuttin' It

Trying to flush out my system by drinking a bunch of water. It should be enough to get the uric acids out of my body but it’s not working. So ya, the gout flare up is still going on. Extreme p...


December 29, 2022

For My Aussie Reader


December 27, 2022

More Pain

Knee is still wonky. Woke up today to a gout flare up in my right foot. So I’m pretty much incapacitated for the foreseeable future. This really really sucks! It snowed yesterday (which is prob...


December 26, 2022

Merry Christmas!

For those stuck with family, this tune is for you.


Tennessee Valley Authority is going about one of it’s emergency protocols and is doing rolling blackouts. I was watching TV but now I’m sitting in the dark typing this up. Huntsville Utilities T...


December 21, 2022

Washed Blanket

It’s so soft and warm! Mmm After a handful of IBPROFEREN I’ve felt much better than what I wrote in the last entry. It feels like the swelling is coming back above the knee. I hope not, I like...


December 21, 2022

Don't Feel Too Great

Woke up today with a thirst 1,000 lakes wouldn’t cure. Bit of a headache and soreness all over. Had to stop and actually remember if I drank last night or not. (I didn’t. 20+ days now.) That ...


December 16, 2022

I CAN WALK!

Sorta… No crutches but still a noticeable stiffness/fluid build up/limp. I did manage to crash yesterday morning after waking myself up. Watched Looney Toons while puffing on the vape. Got ston...


December 15, 2022

Canceled!

Was sound asleep and rolled over, accidentally bumping the sore knee. Now I’m wide awake. 🤕🤒 It is getting better, just slowly. 2:24 AM, ugh! Every now and then I’ll browse the On-demand menu...


Book Description

I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.

Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.

It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.

I.
Am.
Robot.

Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.

I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.

So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.

I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.

But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.

People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.

This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.

I welcome ProseBox into my life.