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Sleep Is Off Again
Woke up this afternoon feeling like absolute shit. My body hurt, my throat hurt and I kept hacking up some lovely mucus. DayQuil took care of that for me. Didn’t do shit today. Rained so no la...
Starlord At The Movies
Guardians 3 was awesome! The after credits scene was meh. There was a lot of cgi animals so when I watched the credits I recognized a few famous names that voiced them. Lloyd Kauffman Linda C...
Mucho Mejor
Woke up with no aches and pains. Yay! Took two trazadones and crashed HARD! Slept around ten hours and woke up so groggy. Worth it though. We’re gonna catch the 6:30 showing of Guardians. F...
Not Hungover
When I did manage to sleep this morning, it was only a few hours. I woke up feeling like absolute shit. My bones hurt and I had a headache. Was supposed to drive my mom and aunt around to lunc...
4:45 AM
Still awake. It’s technically Tuesday so I can say that yesterday was officially two weeks sober. Hooray!!! 🎊 I’m tired yet sleep won’t come. Figures. My alarm is set to go off at six so I ca...
NO SLEEP TILL...
EXHAUSTION!!! Finished Robogenesis and went as far to email the author on his website if a third book is in the works. It ends on a cliffhanger where the two AI’s are about to duke it out for co...
3:00 AM
Dunno if it’s nerves or too much caffeine today but I’m wide awake. Watching Drugs Inc on National Geographic Channel. The last episode was about krokidile. Last five minutes showed a guy’s le...
Who Woulda Thought
I’d be craving getting high more thank getting drunk. It was real bad earlier. For those who aren’t addicts, when a craving hits all your emotions hit at once. This time I was angry. I wanted...
Big Yawn
Managed to catch another hour or so of sleep today. I bet been relaxing with my heating pad, PS4 and my book Robogenesis. I finished the first one Robopocalypse a few days ago. It’s about an AI ...
NO SLEEP FOR YOU!
Another night of shitty sleep. I’m very tired right now but can’t doze off to save my life. In the meantime I’d like a few sausage links, order of hash browns with cheese (and maybe a few splash...
Sandpaper And Iodine
My friggin’ left foot is itching so bad. I got a bug bite, figures. It dawned on me earlier that today is double digits, ten days sober. Awesome! I’m still having the urge to get stoned but ...
Three Good Deeds
Went and widdled in the cup this morning. Even the guy administering the test was surprised I was called twice in a row. After, I sucked it up and went to New Horizons and filled out the paper...
Seriously?
Just called the color code line. I get to pee AGAIN in a cup this morning. 🙄
Beached Whale
Another factoid since quitting pot/alcohol, I’ve been putting away a lot more food. Granted it’s been veggies as I’ve been cooking more but tonight I over did it in fajitas. When not taking in ...
Scared?
I went and did my alcohol/drug screening this morning. I was going to go to New Horizons and do the assessment for the outpatient program but I chickened out. I don’t know why I’m so apprehensi...
Widdle In A Cup
My color got called today. I’ll go around eight-ish for the drug/alcohol screening. Didn’t sleep too good last night. Still very tired.
Seven Days
No weed and no alcohol. Woo hoo!!!
General Emptiness?
I don’t know what was going on earlier but I just felt…hollow? Empty? The way I put it to New Friend is Friday I had the Lewis Black show, yesterday I did yardwork and then went out to eat. To...
Burn!!!
Did that yard work today. Chainsawed a bunch. Now my arms and back hurt from hauling that crap from the backyard to the curb. I’m sunburned, too. Bah! Mom took my eldest and SIL out to eat ...
Lewis Black And Other Musings
The show last night was funny just the audio sucked. When he was speaking softly I couldn’t really make out what he was saying but when he started his ranting and yelling I could hear him fine. ...
Eggplant Parm Rocks
Mom cooked last night. Ended up eating two plates as I was super hungry. Ended up eating the last just a few minutes ago for lunch. My withdrawal symptoms are getting better. I’m very tired ri...
Rage Monster Update
I’m so fucking irritable today. I want my vape. 6:07 PM I’ve calmed down a lot. Mom and I did breakfast at Blue Plate Cafe, went shopping and generally enjoyed the nice weather. After so muc...
Let's Boogie!
Court. I’m not on probation but am on color code. I have to called a number EVERYDAY and if my color comes up I go to widdle in a cup at the courthouse. Judge told me to check out New Horizons...
In My Head
As the title says, I’ve been in my head all night. Why I suck at relationships, would I have gotten married, it sure would’ve been nice to get help for my mental health a long time ago… Ya, thin...
1994
Book Description
I came on my own volition.
I am the man that got away.
Work -
Tonight I clocked in at 4:30 PM and it was suddenly Wednesday when I worked 6:45 AM to 6 PM with only an hour lunch break and on my feet the rest. I was trying to relieve Logan in the back who was frying chicken both for our loose case and boxed hot case so he could go to lunch. Instead I got mixed with a redneck who wanted a Philly steak and cheese. I made his sandwich to order only to be confronted with the elderly gentleman behind him. He, to this shit. o, wanted a Philly. I was annoyed. Angry. Granted chicken side cooking sucks At least you’re away from the customers. I can, “pretend”, like I’m cooking chicken in the back but dick around for ten minutes, which actually rarely happens. You learn to smile and accept this shit. Made him his sandwich, didn’t stop to ask the next customer if he needed help. Instead, went straight to the back and told Logan to take his lunch, I was taking over, box up what just came up out the fryer and we’re good.
It was just one of those days. People wonder why I get stoned before work.
I.
Am.
Robot.
Tell.
Me.
What.
Is.
Next.
I’m versatile.
Put me in any situation and I come victorious.
Even on the bad days.
So when I go the hardcore bitch mode of my assistant manager on Wednesday after my eleventh hour there. I got irate.
I know she does a job for two.
Her boss/my boss sucks ass.
But fuck....I’m part time.
If you want to bitch and yell about the shit that the full timers didn’t do…bitch to them.
DON’T MAKE ME DO THEIR FUCKING SHIT THE LAST HOUR I’M THERE!
I’ve been working for this slave camp for three and a half years.
I lost my insurance last year due to me being stupid and the store manager catching on. Which is actually a big blessing. I haven’t missed a day in a year.
But I’ve been there for every shift.
Sleep, no sleep?
Fuck it.
Show up for work.
The computer takes over on schedule and now I don’t qualify for our good insurance.
I have to take the government stuff?
OK.
I’m a democrat.
Lifelong.
BUT FUCK YOU OBAMA!
Don’t tell me what to do.
I’ll go another year without health insurance.
I want my good Blue Cross Blue Shield Back.
Make my job give me the hours back for insurance.
People close to me say I need to see a therapist.
After A.A. and an almost check in at rehab.
Maybe I do need anti-depressants.
This is a rant with no one I know reading this.
Its liberating.
I welcome ProseBox into my life.
