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I feel so unfocused when I have my snap streaks to keep up with and when I start to fill in the voids with scrolling through Facebook and Instagram. A couple weeks ago I deactivated my Facebook a...

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I was cleaning up my facial hair situation when I accidentally fucked it all up and had to remove it all to reset it. I had a goatee for a year now. I liked how people treated me differently. I w...

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Things that triggered my depression do not trigger me anymore but I still have been feeling down lately. I am lonely. I wish I had a companion. When my 2 year old niece laughs or smiles she looks...

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Today was a little interesting. Work has been getting a little toxic for me lately. Today I accidentally told my boss how I have been feeling. I call it an accident because I haven’t even told my...

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My body has been going through some changes lately but I noticed a change in myself that is major. I have been living with depression for as long as I can remember and I honestly couldn’t imagine...

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The other day I had that holy ghost experience. Yesterday I think I understood why. I was feeling burdened and irritable because I just wanted to do nothing after I dropped my niece off at daycar...

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I think experienced the holy ghost or something this morning. After I dropped my niece off at her daycare I returned home to make myself some breakfast and have some Matcha tea before I went for ...

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My best friend got married yesterday to the man I set her up with. I was a bridesmaid and Tyler was the maid of honor. The bride left me out of all the planning because she gets me but Tyler was ...

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Does that existential dread ever leave? I feel like we all harbor it. It’s unique to us all but it’s right there burning a hole in our hearts and making us feel like we never have enough. It’s ri...

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I figured out the source of my severe anxiety from a couple weeks ago and I have been making some major changes to my lifestyle. To combat my cystic acne issues I was debating quitting dairy. The...

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I have been experiencing some pretty intense anxiety the last couple days. For no reason it appears. It was like I was getting gut punched the whole time. I barely ate at all. Honestly. Anyway in...

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I had the house to myself May long weekend and I decided that I would have a guy over. It’s been a year and a half since I lost my v-card. My first and probably my last Grindr hookup because it w...

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I think I just got too good at hiding from the existential dread. I quit alcohol a couple weeks ago. I just wanted a cleanse. My reasons for that were small but now I feel that I have something b...

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Sometimes I like to let my demons out to play for some reason. I had been so stressed with work that I was going to crazy and taking everybody with me. I was even bumming cigarettes off an employ...

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I’m being an idiot. Zach and I were play fighting over space at work and he went to squeeze behind me at one point and I pushed my tush against him and was like “oh papi” and then he got flustere...

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Suddenly I’m a life coach to the fuck boys I work with. I know “kids” look up to me and such but not this many attractive straight guys at once. It’s just 3 but I’m in my dirty 30s and they give ...

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It has about run its course. I tend to turn my feelings for somebody else into something toxic for everyone. I didn’t let it get that far this time. No obsessive boy disorder. I think my night on...

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I don’t want my narrative to be about a boy. I do have other things going on. A friend of mine is part of an art exhibit tonight. I might go. If I don’t I will just ask him all about it because i...

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I figured out what I am going to do. I am explaining this situation with Zach to my Manager and I will make a sexual harassment claim. Nobody will lose their job over this I assume. I could not s...

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I might be exhausting myself to save face around Zach. I am definitely exhausting myself trying not to talk about him. It’s hard. I have to get this out today however. He keeps throwing shade. He...

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Yesterday I really missed an old friend. He lost his battle with alcoholism a few years ago. It is a long story for another time but he was like an older brother to me. He was so smart and wise. ...

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Ok… so there is something wrong with me. Last week I remembered this guy I used to work with whom I hadn’t heard anything about in years. He didn’t have FB then but he has it now so I added him. ...

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Alright alright alright. I explained to Zach today that he was confusing me with his jokes about being sexually confused and his fake flirting with me and we set the record straight and made some...

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Lately I have been kind of speechless. I’ll be honest that it was that altercation between Zach and I that had me triggered. The one from Valentines day. I didn’t realize how much I cared about h...

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Old habits die hard and boy do I have a big one to kill. Zach wanted me to take a picture of him on my phone. “Now you have something to masturbate to” he said after. It was funny. Last night I d...

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