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October 11, 2018

2018 fail

*I feel like I have failed at everything I wanted to do this year. * I shut that thought down as soon as it comes up but it’s been eating away at me. I’ve been purging my social media. Deleted al...


October 05, 2018

Breather

I am balancing quite a bit lately and I have been so irrevocably exhausted and that has been afffecting my ability to cope with stress. Between getting up with my niece during the week and then g...


These three things are not long hidden. The sun and the moon and the truth. In November a few colleagues of mine from various store locations had a dilemma that they brought to my attention becau...


September 05, 2018

No shortcut to a dream

I haven’t updated in a while. I felt like all I do is whine about myself and I have been trying to be more proactive. Life is happen for us and not to us. I linked up with the guy I have always ...


July 07, 2018

Good vibes only

I’m just not in the same place that I was before and I am not the same man I was before and quite frankly I am tired of being around bad vibes. Everybody seems to think that they are falling apar...


June 17, 2018

Dream Paralysis

I felt that weight on my chest. I laid myself down on my sofa to rest up and I woke up on my bed. I wasn’t awake but I was conscious. If that makes sense. I started my way out of bed only to snap...


May 31, 2018

2.22

Lately a lot of my thoughts have been manifesting. Small things like a random craving for an Indian dish that an employee of mine made me once. She surprised me with it the next day. Other things...


May 26, 2018

Speechless

I have been pretty speechless. I am not sure what happened but my depression undermined all the hard work I had put into myself this last few years. I didn’t exactly fall apart and lose control o...


April 01, 2018

Fading

I had everything under control until I relapsed with my anxiety and depression. It started a couple weeks when everything blew up in my face at work. I had the business sitting pretty, we were th...


March 14, 2018

I still get jealous

I woke up feeling pretty bummed out. My mind is comparing myself to the success of others and it is making me jealous. There is a young woman in my city I follow on Instagram, she bought a beauti...


March 13, 2018

Instawhore moment

Gains for somebody like me is hard to get. I am already naturally too thin and I just altered my diet to lower my body fat so I can look more cut instead. Basically I am trying to get my abs to c...


March 05, 2018

Question

I’m sitting in my dark room where I have spent most of my day. At my computer desk with my scented candle and my lemon, mint water. I have instrumental music playing in the background and I’m try...


February 24, 2018

Nice Try Universe.

I been seeing 2:22 everywhere and my superstitious side has been waiting for something to manifest in my life. I assumed that yesterday something would happen when a guy I have a small crush on w...


February 08, 2018

When I grow up

About a month ago I think I figured out what I want to be when I grow up. I had a passion this whole time and I didn’t even realize what it was. Nutrition. I have a career counsellor that I am go...


January 23, 2018

Passenger

Everything is going right on all fronts. I’m finally running my own store at work. I’ve bounced back from Christmas in record timing. My physical health has never been better. My relationship wit...


January 18, 2018

Skin Deep

I got myself so flustered this morning when I woke up. Yesterday I did everything I didn’t want to do. I went out to eat, I went shopping and made purchases that I did not need, I went to the cas...


January 15, 2018

Dumb drama

I don’t know what I was expecting when I got all my friends back together last night. I mean we had a blast and we were beside ourselves that we were all together again. My birthday was a good ex...


January 08, 2018

Salty

I’ll be honest, the vegan jokes get to me. We had our annual gathering for our birthdays and we always order pizza but I made my own and let everybody try some. I made good shit, way better than ...


January 02, 2018

Anger

I was carrying so much anger yesterday. I am feeling it today also. I can barely contain it. Control it? I feel powerless in a lot of the circumstances that make me feel so trapped right now but ...


December 22, 2017

2017 Reflection

Every time I visit my mother we end up in a debate or argument about my vegan lifestyle. Today she was extra judgmental and opinionated about a lot things and situations in my life. When did we b...


November 25, 2017

Harvey Weinstein situation

My operations manager is allegedly fraternizing with his assistant from the store that I worked at last year. That assistant and I were pretty close during our time together. My operations manage...


November 17, 2017

My name is human

I don’t know how to make sense of this experience but I dove deep into myself yesterday. Through all the appointments and notifications and into the thoughts that I don’t like to think about. I w...


November 10, 2017

Slay

My social anxiety is pretty high right now for the lamest reason. Tyler is moving to a different province and tonight is his goodbye party and I just don’t know why I have been obsessing over how...


October 31, 2017

Imploded

I don’t know what came over me yesterday. I spent a chunk of my morning laying on the floor in my room. I couldn’t catch my breath. My chest was too tight and my heart was pins and needles. I had...


October 16, 2017

Push

Out of nowhere my anxiety has returned and I do not care that it is back. I just realized that I had let it make all my decisions this week. All the wrong ones. The easy ones. The do nothings. . ...


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