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Christina Lopes, from YouTube, was able to help break down my experience here so beautifully with these six stages. I’ve mansplained them down a bit. I am so happy that I stumbled on to this. I f...

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When your body needs water what do you feel? Thirsty. When your body needs sustenance what do you feel? Hungry. When your body needs sleep what do you feel? Tired. When you need to grow what do y...

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I was completely crushed by my A&D yesterday. They both hit me at once. I remembered what RuPaul said in an interview when he was asked if there was one thing that he could say to kids today ...

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It finally sunk in that Miranda & her addict boyfriend used my name to create a hydro account at their last house. Hydro is slang, that’s what we call an electric bill in my part of the world...

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I think that I need to ease up on myself. I feel as though I am supposed to solve all of my problems overnight. I’m rumbling with a lot of emotions and old habits and this process can take time. ...

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Oh Today I’m just a drop of water and I’m running down a mountainside. Come tomorrow I’ll be in the ocean. I’ll be rising with the morning tide. -Gabrielle Aplin I’m feeling existential today. I...

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I was feeling pretty good yesterday. Miranda made it into town and she got to see her support system. It’s not been easy for her to have anything of her own because of her boyfriend’s disease. Hi...

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Mood Forecast: Bubbly with a chance of shade. I’m feeling great. I’m really addicted to this high vibration. I hate when I lose it. It’s such a long way down now. It’s like I’m excited instead of...

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Hetal is moving to Ontario on the 30th. I am planning a little goodbye party for her. She really wants to take me with her. She would totally make it so easy too. She’s probably already hired a m...

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I am vibrating at the lowest of frequencies. Shame and fear. I am such an idiot. I keep talking about a lawyer and it didn’t even cross my mind that I am going to have to pay that lawyer. I was o...

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I dreamt about my old work again. Thus, I woke up thinking about it all and it actually feels like a fresh wound. It’s been seven months. Learning that Mel lost her job made me feel dirty. I’m no...

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A life coach. That is what I could use right now. I could use somebody on my side right now as I can’t seem to get up the nerve to take any form of action in my life. It’s been seven months now s...

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I feel great I feel amazing just like I did on Saturday and now I know it is because I went out and interacted with another human being so it is clear that I need to get out more. Brucey and I fi...

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Put your hands on your chest and over your heart. Visualize the kind of person that you want to be. Ask your heart what beliefs you have that are in the way of becoming that person. Your heart wi...

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Basically I can’t tell if I am on the brink of having a breakthrough or if I am on the brink of having a breakdown. Internally, I didn’t realize how constipated my brain was. How cluttered it all...

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Last night I dreamt that I was standing at a beach in Australia. I did not tell anybody that I ran away from home. The dream ended with me walking around an apartment like Lisa Loeb but I was sin...

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After my entry yesterday I did what I do best, I pretended that pain isn’t happening to me. After I reckoned with what is hurting me I failed to rumble with it. Today though! I woke up prepared, ...

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I woke up feeling half decent. Yesterday evening I was flustered and stressed about doing something that I did not want to do, look at my finances. It was a couple of hours with high anxiety unti...

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I woke up and had that brief moment of peace for the first time in months. That moment before my mind floods my conscious with the day to day thoughts. I wish I would never wake up again was my r...

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I can’t even get through one page in the book that I am reading, Rising Strong by Brene Brown. I can’t tame my thoughts. What is my hurt? What is the hurt that I am hiding from? What did I bury f...

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I met my new doctor today. He’s a fucking sweetheart. I can’t with him. He’s like a big jolly Johnathan Van Ness. On his desk, he had a little rainbow unicorn shrine moment. It was a rainbow teat...

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I’m doing another round on Indeed. This time I actually threw my resume around a bit. Originally I did not want a manager position of any kind but that’s all that I barely qualify for that pays a...

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This morning, as I tried to pick up where I left off in Brene Brown’s book Rising Strong I realized that I had to start that book from the beginning. It took me two and a half hours to get throug...

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As I finally have some time and space to myself today I got to let my guard down and see what emotions wanted to come through. I’m jacked up and busted folks. I’m so irrevocably broken and desper...

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I am supposed to be conquering my morning routine, which I am not failing miserably at I just feel like I woke up with a hangover. This happened yesterday also. I stopped drinking days ago so I d...

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