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I managed to cry a little bit today. I’m not the emotional incontinent guy that I used to be but I was thinking about how when these BLM riots end there will be no jobs for those communities to g...

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I spent the day with Brucey yesterday. We went to a few different towns to walk along the beaches during this heatwave. Those towns were so much bigger to me when I was a child. It was spontaneou...

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I am baffled by how much doesn’t exist in the real world. How much in my life isn’t real. I don’t mean that the world is featureless and blank. It’s a system of concepts in which we describe thin...

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Does overthinking burn calories? My thoughts exhaust me. They wear me down. I count my blessings that my thoughts are not noxious. I am not weighed down by depressive thoughts nor am I frantic wi...

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First world problems are giving me mood poisoning today. My PC google browser is identifying as a mobile device whenever I try to go on YouTube. My PC speakers are crackling and my headphones sto...

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I am 34, I’m unemployed and I live in my sister’s basement and I’m living off of CERB. Some people call this rock bottom, some call it room for opportunity and I call it finally being boyfriend m...

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My niece returned from a weekend camping trip with my mother. I am excited that my mother gets to take her grandkids camping. Taking us camping was her favourite thing ever and now she gets to do...

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I think what a lot of people are failing to understand about themselves is their power. The agency that they have in their lives. They don’t have a good concept of responsibility. Personal respon...

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I need an intervention. Ben Shapiro read some of the lyrics to Cardi B’s new song WAP and listening to him talking dirty did something to me that it shouldn’t. I need Jesus. I need God. I need to...

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I feel compelled to write but I don’t have anything to say really. Okay, I do but it’s dumb and weird. Yesterday when I took my niece to a provincial park I caught myself checking out other guys....

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I left my mother’s today feeling pretty flustered. If anyone is going to manage to get under my skin it is going to be my mother. I’m not mad about it. I just have to process our interaction toda...

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There was a mini intervention moment today about my politics from my family. We hosted my niece’s fifth birthday so we had a decent-sized gathering to celebrate. I tried to refrain from bringing ...

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I’m feeling a little sensitive today, emotionally speaking. My pharmacist has yet to get a hold of my doctor’s office. Something I am also struggling with. I’m thinking about just giving up and q...

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Yet again I’m waiting for my doctors office to fax over my refill to my pharmacist. I don’t know if it is COVID related but this has never taken this long. I’m bad for cutting it close between re...

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Getting ahold of my doctor is proving to be a challenge. I am not enjoying the feeling of being hungover in the mornings from my medication. I don’t think it was a mistake trying thing his way an...

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[Mild Spoiler Warning] My roommates spontaneously left town for the day. They spent the night in Anola. It was a pleasant surprise. I enjoyed having some time and space to myself. I didn’t do any...

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I had to carry the weight of my depression around with me for most of the day yesterday. I felt heartbroken without any context. That’s just the way depression goes I guess. I didn’t let it make ...

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I have the world wide web tuned out. The virtual people at least. Just for a while because I have been creating space and distance from all of the wrong things. I fell asleep Sunday feeling prett...

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I don’t know what compelled me to sit through an “inspiring” speech by a priest about those who “suffer” from same-sex attraction. I was thinking about my own identity as a gay man this morning a...

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I still remain attached to the things that keep me radically distracted. I suppose that on some level I feel that creating distance between me and my goals is protecting me from failure. I need t...

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I managed to get my crying on but from an unexpected source. I learned a thing or two about how some materials are sourced for vaccinations and I could not wait to wake up this so morning so I co...

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I’ve been lethargic all day today. Also nauseous but I believe that one is due to my roommates. They had meatballs in their slow cooker all day and so the house smelt like something died and has ...

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Pardon my melodramatic entry title but I can’t stir up my insides today. I failed to not be overstimulated but I did not know what else to do today. I had a few beers in the afternoon, I played w...

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I’ve already said this but I am getting too attached to politics. I don’t have to let it take up so much space in my life but it just feels desperate because of the US election this November. The...

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